Ok one is prob gonna read this cause these are everywhere
Overall, Im glad 2014 is over that year is absolute shit for me because of making one of the most dumbest decision of my life. I was dumb enough to think that I could take on architecture, that i could force myself to love the course. My parents were happy with my decision, already calling me "Architect Marielle", I was glad that they were glad, and that was enough for me. I didnt go for what I really wanted, which was to go to art school, because all that clouded my mind was it was hard to get a job, and I would have no future. All of that led to failing my classes and losing self-esteem. My blockmates in architure are very talented, and that made me hate myself, why cant I be like them? Why cant I be good at drafting too? Why don't I have the same passion that they have when designing? Surely they will pass the cut-off but what about me? It changed my view on the world dramastically, I became more serious, and it felt like everything I did was for nothing, I became very depressed to the point were my dormmates are used to me crying in the bed. I thought I could like my course, I thought I would learn to love it, but it doesn't really work that way does it? A certain friend once said to follow what I really love, and no matter how many times I fail, I will keep working, keep trying to suceed because this is what I truly love. I realized that a little too late, as I've already fucked up and is currently finding a way to get accepted to the course I really want.
Lesson I've learned in 2014: There will always be people better than you whether you like it or not, your weakness is your weakness and you can never change that.
Happy new year everyone, dont make the same mistakes that I made, do what you think is best this year and all the years after, go and do what you love, don't listen to other people, their opinions are bullshit. This is your life, and you do what you need to do to be happy.